Description
"I wish I never had you."
"You talk in riddles."
"Can't you talk intelligent?"
My mother said these words to me more than times than I can count.
I thought it was normal.
I learned it was not.
This is my story.
I didn't speak until I was five. At age six, I was put in special education and called a 'retard' by my own brothers.
I was autistic, but no one knew it. Except God knew. At six years old, He told me He was watching over me. I didn't even know who God was, except by the spitting remarks my mother made about religion at the dinner table.
At seven I was abused by my friend's 19-year-old cousin. At ten my mother punched me in the face with her closed fist, blaming me for something I didn't do. Realizing she would never love me, I no longer wanted to live. I handed my brother a knife and demanded that he use it on me. He stared at me and laughed.
It was at that moment I realized I had no choice but to survive and no one was going to help me. I had to choose my own path. I had to learn to love myself. I had to turn the negatives in my life into positives.
Autistic, dyslexic, and carrying a big secret, I made my way in the world with a single dream.
Author: Robert Bautner
Publisher: Forest City Publications
Published: 10/31/2023
Pages: 490
Binding Type: Paperback
Weight: 1.43lbs
Size: 9.00h x 6.00w x 0.99d
ISBN13: 9798988788409
ISBN10: 8988788400
BISAC Categories:
- Biography & Autobiography | Personal Memoirs